Love is painful

Okey..

I never felt the true love from a guy..they only wanna have sex with you..so, u have to beware! off of it..

I just dont know how to begin..or maybe u are not for me actually. I admit i think of u many times. But thats not the thing that i wanna it. We are same people..u and me..but living in different background. Sometimes i dunno u..what u are thinking..and what u want actually?? I just dont have any idea what u really want.  For me, i want more than u cant give to me..im expecting too much! I dont know how to express my feeling.

Boys, before this i too scare of them..until now. I have set my mind that this kind/creatures are cant be trusted! hihiii~ So, what can i do..? I dont have any idea what they really are..what they want..but that i pretty sure is sex! When they desperate sangap, they will find u..until now i cant forget my 1st bf.. He tought me many things that i really dont wanna know..heh! And now, also i made same mistake. Maybe, there no man will come in my life..im not for them..not good enough. 

And u..i give up! Maybe im not good enough for u. I try to be good but still not good. We just good to be friend. I love u very much as friend. I dont think that we can be couple..i think is like not suitable for us. Im looking a guy who is can guide me, caring bout me, love me, and and can accept me who i am..my acting, my appearence and all weakness that i have. That is im looking for it. And i dunno when he will come..and maybe there is no one for me..heh! (i repeat it again huh!) 

Nothing more to say..